Talking about STrength
Even moms feel bullied too. I thought as you get older, that it could get easier. There are so many things that happen from my childhood that are still affecting me. However now when you’re with your children you revisit these kinds of dramas. These traumas that you also had as a child; it takes you right back there.
must be a reason
I want to know where the science behind it. Why do people want to make people feel bad? Is there some chemical release with hurting someone’s mentality? I want to tell you when I was a kid, I recognized any time I did something nasty or even selfish something bad would happen. However, I truly didn’t pick up on it until my 20’s. This was my hubris that has since kept me from doing intentional wrong to others.
PTSD from childhood
When my children tell me what’s going on in their life outside of home, I try my best to not be dismissive. I want them to know that mom has their back, but at the same time it’s hard to hear. I have to admit it’s a struggle to see hope in the world when you see things that happen to you. You know stupid stuff that happened thirty years ago, happen to your kid.
Moms need to aim high
So how do you deal with adult insecurities, especially when you’re a mom. When you’re supposed to be raising children to have a mentality that doesn’t all this petty stuff doesn’t matter. I’m struggling with this. I think that you see this a lot of times in my writing. I know what I’m supposed to do but implementation is hard.
be the example
I find that not listening to all the noise is almost impossible to ignore. I just keep trying to think that deep down inside if I’m a good person that I will do good things. Usually that’s enough for me to proceed with my life. That’s what I need to do, and hopefully it will eventually reveal itself to be the right direction. If it doesn’t I always I know the answer is to be an unselfish as possible. I just need to have in trust myself. After all the only person I need to believe in me is me, the rest will follow.
Lead with Love.