I had such high hopes
Ok, so I’m sorry!
I wanted to post last week but on Wednesday with what happened at home ( in Washington D.C.) my mind was very negative. I didn’t want to post and make others feel my despair and my mind was wrestling with my will to want to control things. I had to wait and let things settle down a little bit.
how to deal
I have my ways of coping. I recognize some are good but others definitely don’t help me (or anyone). I have found that during those darker times. As I get older I’m happy to say I don’t want bring others down with me too. I think a lot of it is because I can’t control the situation. If you ever feel like this, I try to remember to keep looking up and moving forward albeit very slowly.
old me
I will give you an old technique that I have used for awhile now. When my daughter was modeling in China and she be up for a client/ brand, sometimes the client wouldn’t choose her. This would happen, and it would feel crushing. Instead of focusing on the negative, I would put that energy in to work on her composite card. I could control that and make the comp card look better (I used to work at an agency so that helps). Any adversity should make us more resilient.
finding you
So as I think about now so much more stuff going on in the world that I cannot control whatsoever. What can I do to cope with personal feelings? My thing is to come up and try to occupy myself with something I actually like to do. When you’re a mom there are so many things you have to do. Right now I have a list of annoying things like sorting through kids old clothes, cooking dinner, and calling credit card companies to dispute some charges. Just such mundane stuff, but I also need some creative release. I want to feel like I have some achievement in this world.
new me
I’ve been working on my photography skills because I think this is important for me. Recently I started working in a professional studio environment because it makes me feel like I am actually capable of doing something new. I think it improves my self esteem and I feel a new sense of fulfilment.
Doing me will make everyone else happy too
So for all you moms out there who are stuck in the same scary space. Find something for yourself to do that doesn’t include you doing something for your kids, your partner or your home. Find an outlet that you feel like you can get some kind of encouragement and sense of achievement and work with that. By focusing on something that makes you feel happy then you can be a better all around person when your emotional needs are met.
And you ever need someone to talk too, send me a message.