close to home
I’ve been grappling with something lately that’s been sitting heavy on my heart. It’s about my mom, and it’s not an easy thing to talk about. Our relationship has always been a bit strained, like I’m the one parenting instead of the other way around. But recently, I’ve been noticing some signs that have me feeling like the possibility that my mom might be going through dementia.
not really there
It’s a tough pill to swallow, you know? The woman who raised me, now seemingly doesn’t seem to have her stuff together. The strained relationship takes on a new layer of complexity when you realize you might be losing the person you’ve always had a complicated connection with. Lately, she’s been attempting to pay for services she’s already taken care of, and it’s like a stark realization that her memory might be fading faster than we thought.
Future expectations
It’s emotionally draining, I always felt like I’m her mother. Processing these emotions is really too much. There’s a mix of sadness, frustration, and an overwhelming sense of responsibility. I never thought that my overtly manipulative mother would be reduced to this. I don’t have all the answers, and honestly, I’m not sure how to navigate this journey ahead. All I hope is that it will happen at a slow pace.